Never been kissed

Reporter: Clare Brady
Broadcast Date: June 06, 2009

Unlike Susan Boyle, most of us would keep it secret but 27-year-old Meagan Jackson is one Aussie who has never been kissed.

"I've been too self-conscious, I don't think I have anything to offer," Meagan said.

"It just hasn't happened for me."

Meagan believes her dreams have been damaged by her on going battle with depression.

She has been fighting her private and isolated war with the illness for a long time and has been medicated for depression for almost a decade.

"It's ruined my life, that's why I am where I am now as opposed to where my friends are," she said.

"It's tainted every decision that I've made."

But it may have prompted her bravest move. So frustrated with depression, she recently told the world via YouTube of what it is like to battle mental illness and her dream of a kiss.

Meagan has set her sights on a star, a Hollywood star in the shape of Twilight's lead, Robert Pattinson.

She accepts it is unlikely but wants him to be her dream first kiss.

Through her courageous move, she's raising money for the charity One in Five, a support group for the one-in-five Australians likely to experience depression in their lives.

Psychologist Robyn Rubenstein is concerned.

"It's a cry for help and I think with cyberspace opportunities, people are shopping for therapy and medication elsewhere," Robyn said.

But for the full-time student who already has a university degree, this is just so much more.

"It's OK to admit you're sick and people will understand," she said.

"Just being honest, I've been overwhelmed by how much support I've been getting.

"There's nothing wrong with it."